Losing your virginity

“i’m sorry.”

“…for what?”

there was a strong feeling of awkwardness.


Not alone 🙃

(S)He was going through pain, but never showed that side. It was something (s)he hid from the world, but maybe none asked for or even not for creating sympathy. (S)He had masked his sadness with what looked like the ideal life. Being high but low inside, pretending from depression and anxiety.

Depression is not always obvious, the interfere with daily living. Even do you think it’s sadness,crying and being quiet?

The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel alone

The uphill struggle over the years !

With music blasting, voices singing and talking on a typical ride .., could feel the car scratching the median. Body, jolting with the sporadic moments of the chase, for one last time closing the eyes with the seal ..! Floating on the seat belt

Blood,sweat and tears, there’ll be none to listen

I acknowledge your pain. I am here with you.

The words are responsible for nothing less than emotional, spiritual and psychological violence, Everything happens for a reason ! Result of living a wonderful life? Why not for a positive changes in life.

You may know exactly what I’m talking about. Let me be crystal clear; yes it’s a tragedy, let it be in its way or the shape it is meant to be . Analyse the person ! Not a better one ? You can take responsibility to fix it, you have all rights to remove that person from your life.

Guilt and Grief are brutally painful. It’s not when someone dies, it’s also when trust is broken, shattered dreams, missed opportunities, and altogether ends up with wrecking of illness .

Can life be fixed ? Or to be carried ?

Yes, it can only be carried.

With the absence?


Building up a extraordinary or unconventional life is a hardship when the loss is not in it but it’s into the soul, the guilt that will haunt the entire life 🙃 and that guilt will be the genesis of the hiding and brokenness.

Let me narrate some fallacies for myself not by assuming God but by taking up responsibility

None has the authority over anything,only time gives the authority. Grief is for the loss , shove the throat!

Nothingness ?



Bitter past

A healed memory is not a deleted memory…Instead, forgive what you can’t forget. Change the memory of our past into a hope of future !

And it is the new way to remember


Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. u find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

Create a free website or blog at WordPress.com.

Up ↑